I'm officially job hunting. It's odd, because it's the first time in my life I've been looking for prospective employment while currently employed, but I've got to take care of myself first, and I can't guarantee that my job will be safe. To say that we're under intense scrutiny is probably an understatement.
It's like this: I've got to bring in anywhere from $10,000 to $60,000 between now and the end of the school year in order to keep my job. No pressure! The new position I adopted this year has been fun and I've enjoyed it, but it's also come with its challenges, and the newest challenges aren't necessarily worth the headaches I've dealt with almost every weeknight since early February. (No. Mom. It's not a brain tumor.)
I love the kids and families I work with, but the pressure and scrutiny I'm feeling make afraid to even post on my personal blog--not cool. Hell, I'm afraid to use the Facebook groups for the school's alums and 100th anniversary, and that's part of my job! A few weeks ago, I started getting a sinking feeling in my stomach when I checked my work email. I'm nervous about what I'll find behind my login. I'm starting to view people I work with as competitors, and it's not at all a healthy work environment right now.
I'm confident that these changes and the stresses we're all under are for the "good of the students" and that no one's making changes without them in mind. If they aren't, then their priorities are misplaced. The kids are the reason I go to work each day. Their education and their success is inextricably linked to my own. But lately...it feels like there is more emphasis (at least in my arena) on the funding that fuels the school rather than the education. And, you can definitely make the argument that the school cannot educate without funds. We can't purchase books and equipment without funds, and without the proper tools, we can't educate our kids.
After talking to my husband and some family and friends, it's a tough decision to make, but I feel like I don't have any other options. Hell, if I could write my own job description, I would. Unfortunately, that's not an option.
So....wish me luck! Let's just pray I can leave on my own terms and not on someone else's.